It's hard to believe that on Tuesday I will be 30 weeks! The time has really flown by especially in the last couple of months. During my infertility I came across a story on someone's blog called Australia. The story is by an anonymous author and I wish I could give credit to someone who describes the journey through infertility so beautifully. I have thought of this story often during my pregnancy, but have especially lately as I am nearing 40 weeks. It sums up the different emotions, pains, and joys of taking the long road to pregnancy. Here it is, and I hope that it encourages anyone still in the middle of "their trip to Australia"!
Deciding to have a baby is like planning a trip to Australia. You've heard it's a wonderful place. You've read many guidebooks and feel certain you're ready to go. Everyone you know has traveled there by plane. They say it can be a turbulent flight with occasional rough landings, but you look forward to being pampered on the trip.So you go the the airport and ask the ticket agent for a ticket to Australia. All around you, excited people are boarding planes for Australia. It seems there is no seat for you, you'll have to wait for the next flight. Impatient, but anticipating a wonderful trip, you wait, and wait, and wait.Flights to Australia come and go. People say silly things like, "Relax, You'll get on a flight soon.: Other people actually get on a plane and then cancel their trip, to which you cry, "It's not fair!"After a long time the ticket agent tells you, "I'm sorry, we're not going to be able to get you on a plane to Australia. Perhaps you should think about going by boat.""By boat!", you say, "Going by boat will take a very long time and costs a great deal of money. I really had my heart set on going by plane." So you go home and think about not going to Australia at all. You wonder if Australia will be as beautiful if you approach it by sea rather than by air. But you have long dreamed of this wonderful place, and finally you decide to travel by boat.It is a long trip, many months over many rough seas. No one pampers you. You wonder if you will ever see Australia. Meanwhile, your friends have flown back and forth to Australia two or three times, marveling about each trip.Then one glorious day, the boat docks in Australia. It is more exquisite than you ever imagined and the beauty is magnified by your long days at sea. You have made many wonderful friends during the voyage, and you find yourself comparing stories with others who also traveled by sea rather than by air.People continue to fly to Australia as often as they like, but you are able to travel only once, perhaps twice. Some say things like, "Oh be glad you didn't fly. My flight was horrible, traveling by sea is so easy." You will always wonder what it would have been like to fly to Australia. Still, you know God blessed you with a special appreciation of Australia, and the beauty is not in the way you get there but in the place itself.
Even though my boat ride was rough and more difficult than a flight, I do feel like God blessed me with an enormous appreciation for both Him and my boys that I pray I will never take for granted.
That made me cry! I'm so excited for you & Will as you get close to your due date for the boys. I can't imagine the trip for you but I'm happy for you and proud of you! I have been and will be praying for you as your family grows from two to four! Congratulations, Kendall!
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ReplyDeleteThis is Katie Heard Howell. It is so fun getting to read about your journey. I love this analogy! I am 15 weeks pregnant, with a fertility journey behind us as well. What a wonderful reminder of where we have been and what is ahead. So excited for you!!! Katie
Dear, sweet Kendall,
ReplyDeleteThank you for your story, and thank you most of all for sharing your heart so freely. The Lord is lifted up in all you write! I understand that now you have made it to the gravy... :-) SO EXCITING! The Lord has done great things for you, and we are so glad! Love and prayers, Karen